March 18, 2016
By 2022 all cars must have automatic braking systems. If I'm still around, I might just keep my Maxda 3s Grand Touring longer. I have another surgery on March 30, to check for bladder muscle tissue that is cancerous or cancer free. Then about a 3 week recovery from that before I start treatments weekly, immunotherapy.
Having quit my jobs, activities, volunteering, I am totally free to sit home and worry about the future. I am being very positive though.  I got my hair colored today so I care how I look still. Last night I moved the clocks forward for daylight savings time. Another good sign I expect to be have a future.  Last night I was losing it, making a necklace, not eating, and grouchy. Luckily for Jan, she was at rehearsal.
Today I went to the store and bought food for myself. Frozen dinners, easy to fix. I am took tired to bother cooking, especially for just me. After Jan's show, I will be cooking for both of us, or she will. I know I will eat more. I could go to restaurants, but I'm not in a good enough mood sometimes.
I'm going to take a nap now; Gracie is curled up next to me. Cats seem to know that and when you need comforting.

It's now August. I am cancer free so far and will be tested again early November. Treatments are working. I also have had other medical issues, eyes, heart, but all are clear now. No worries. Writing about the bladder cancer has been very helpful. I advise anyone dealing with a medical issue that requires waiting for results, worrying about what will happen, to journal about their experiences.
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My new learning experience is Spanish. I am also still learning to make jewelry in my weekly class. The Spanish conversation class is quite fun as I talk the best I can with my limited vocabulary to others who want to learn. It's a 3rd level conversation course taught only in Spanish. Challenging and fun.
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I believe I will start a new topic as the "One night" posts were specifically about my illness.
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