Where and why are fuzzy. I feel different. Anticipatory. Good and bad possibilities. I dwell on the past too much, worry about the future. My meditation app helps me with mindfulness, being in the present. It's quite useful, called "Calm. I do two a day, sometimes even a sleep story when I go to bed. Usually, though, reading a mystery helps. I know I'll find out how that ends. It's life that the unsolvable mystery. Don't feel like eating so much. Don't like to cook anymore, not that I really ever did. But it seems too repetitious. My life everyday the same. Tired of my classes because they repeat. Will take fewer next semester. Keep the Spanish for sure. Maybe jewelry. Not sure about literature. Don't want to go 3 days a week. Need alone time at home to work on jewelry, painting, reading.
Bladder cancer treatments are in February and August 2018, then only once a year as long as there is not recurrence.
I want to write my life. I will try, and if I fail, that's okay, too.
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